So what happens after this? Well, this is a very difficult part to write about. In fact, most of this book has been very hard to write about. But God is gracious and His mercy has seen me through each and every chapter.

Divorce:
Divorce was filed in June of 1995 when I learned that Frank had had a son by his new girlfriend. That is adultery according to Scripture, and on those grounds, I was Biblically correct in filing for divorce. There were lots of Christian friends that told me to "hang on" and prayer through, God will forgive, and you forgive too. Well, let's put it this way…God has a bigger heart than mine. Adultery is one thing that I cannot find in my heart to forgive and especially when I saw whom he was with. That did it! Do not come within three feet of me! Bad attitude? Well, it can only get better then!

Forgiveness:
Yes, I now have peace and forgiveness and do pray for Frank from time to time that he get right with God and renew his vows for the Kingdom of God. I, however, have gone on with my life…and do not want Frank Zeledon back as my husband…now or ever!

Singleness again:
Not all that bad! God is my spouse. Kinda nice letting Him take care of me. He is a good provider. He knows my needs even before I speak. He is gentle, kind, loving, forgiving, merciful…what more could I want? Well, yes, there is this thing called "sex". But what is it, without love? How can I have sex with someone that does not love me? Frank was the last man that I made love to, and he will stay the last until Jesus takes me home, or gives me another husband. Believe me, this time around…I think I would like the writing on the wall!
Meanwhile, God is my spouse. I have to lean on Him for my total care. I also have to obey Him and do His will to keep on "His payroll" too! I always tell my boarders, who are out of work, if you put in 8 hours a day for God, He will see to it that you are paid! God is a debtor to no man. If you are out of work…then work for God! Get on "papa's payroll"…very safe place to be. There is so much you can do for the Lord. Print your own tracts! Tell the story of your own conversion. Distribute them. Go down to the City Park and talk to all the homeless folk about the Lord. Invite them to Church and to the Young People's meetings. God will bless you.

Backtrack a little:
You might say, "well what happened with that Bible Study Group that you and Kevin were in"? I am sorry to say, that I was chewed up and spit out as "duck soup"! Pretty good description, huh? Thought you might like that!

No one likes there "comfort zone" disturbed. And that is exactly what I was doing. Pulling that comfortable rug out from under them by saying…"quit taking those silly antipsychotic drugs and trust Jesus." No one wanted to hear that. They all said, "but my Doctor says I need them for my chemical imbalance!" How does one get across to people that you ARE WHAT YOU THINK! "As a man thinketh in his heart, so is he."

If you think NEGATIVE THOUGHTS, then the color in your brain waves change. Yes they actually change color. You can see it on the PET Scan. When the color changes take place, then the chemical imbalance occurs…..so think GOOD THOUGHTS. Philippians 4:8-9: "Finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report; if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise, think on these things.9 Those things, which ye have both learned, and received, and heard, and seen in me, do: and the God of peace shall be with you".
Whatsoever things are pure, honest, good report, lovely, etc., THINK ON THESE THINGS! You can change your own chemical imbalance by thinking good thoughts. And you can only think good thoughts when you give your mind to the Lord Jesus. So there you have it in a nutshell. You are what you think!

One lady said to me, "but you don't understand, if I go off of my medication, I am a basket case". So? Be a basket case! That is my answer…at least that way, God can help you. Want to scream, scream! Do what ever it takes to set you free from whatever is binding your heart into knots. God wants you free! He says, "whom the Son sets free is free indeed". He wants to deliver you from yourself. You are your own worst enemy. The blood of Jesus Christ not drugs can change your sinful nature! Remember that.

So it seems we are living in a "microwave religious society". Anything that is fast and cheap! It doesn't work that way with God. There is no "climbing up another route". There is only one way…through the door! Jesus is the Door. He is the Way, the truth and the life! No man cometh to the Father except through Him. Don't try to climb to Him by being "good" with drugs! It will not work. You will be left behind.

Poor Kevin, he was so distraught at the way the group treated me. He said to me one day, "Gwen, I thought Christians were supposed to be loving and kind"? "The way they treated you was just not right." Just five days later, it was a Sunday afternoon in fact, that Kevin tried to take his own life. Thank God, He sent His angels to help Kevin…they found him in time, rushed him to the Hospital and pumped his stomach. Kevin was saved, thank you Jesus.

Kevin went through a lot with the loss of his family, friends, home and children. That took its toll on his life. He would never come back to Evangel after that episode. Once I think he did come, for some special occasion, but not afterwards. I tried to encourage him to go elsewhere…and I think he did try a few.

Morgan Court Drive:
Anyway, I was at that beautiful Townhouse for one year, and then the owners told me that they had to put it up for sale, and was I interested. I would have been interested in buying it, if it wasn't for the strata council. They seem to want to run your whole life. I had some extra appliances sitting on my carport, covered in tarp, and they wanted them gone. Not knowing how long I would be there, at that time, I did not want to pay storage for them. So, the owner of the property told me to call an auction place and let them sell the stuff for me. BIG MISTAKE! I had never used an auction place before, so never knew how "underhanded and shifty" they can be. Brand new stove, new gas dryer, matched my washer. I brought them both up from California; they were new before I left. We never used the dryer at Clifton Road because there was no gas hook-up for it.
Anyway, that auction place took me to the cleaners. For everything totally over $5,000.00, they gave me a check for $125.00. I almost "croaked"! Thank God, He is a debtor to no man, and the Lord made up the difference for me. "Vengeance is mine, I will repay saith the Lord"! You cannot loose when God is in control. I just wish I had listened to that still small voice inside of me that told me to put it in storage. Then nothing would have been lost. But, thank you Lord, you repaid me back double. I now have a nice new dryer from Sears, and it works well.

So, anyway, I ended up not buying that Townhouse, strata councils are just not my cup of tea. It is so nice to be independent and free. I appreciate my freedom a lot more, since living in a Townhouse.

I had the mother of one of my boarders come over and help me wash and clean all the floors, cupboards, etc. Actually, she brought a crew over the last nite I was there, and they just scoured the place for me. Thank you Lord. I will always be in your debt Elizabeth. Thanks so much! Travis, her son, was such a good boarder. No one could ask for a nicer person. He helped around as best as he could. Taking the dishes in and out of the dishwasher, sweeping floors, vacuuming, etc. Kevin would help with the baking of cookies, and chopping of vegetables, and just about anything else. He also was marvelous.

Well, it came time to move, and a few weeks before, God had showed me this brand new duplex over on Murray Crescent. I felt in my spirit that this was the place for us, and went ahead and put the deposit down to hold the place. It was brand new. The grass had not even been laid yet. I am sorry to say, that Travis did not want to move "so far away". He felt that it was too far for him and wanted to live closer to Mission, where his family lived. So I ended up with just Kevin and Brian moving into the new home with me. Patricia came a couple of weeks later.

Murray Crescent in Rutland:
The word Rutland does not ring a nice bell in my head. I did not want to live there. It was a poorer community with lots of people on Welfare, etc., but Murray Crescent was in a really nice area. The whole area was called the New Wallace Subdivision area, and I really like THAT AREA!. But God knew how proud I felt inside, and how I wanted to live in the Mission, or some other prestigious place, but He had other plans. I moved into the new home on November lst, 1996 and am still here as I write this book...in my eight year now. I have loved it here. God has been so good to me and supplied every need.

One of the special things that God did for me was bring a young lady to live in my home called Patricia. She was and is such a special young lady. She was so vibrant and full of life. She came to me with a broken heart and a broken life. As she learned to give it all to Jesus, God did miracles in her life. I needed her help for the physical lifting, bending, etc., and she needed my help with mentoring and counseling.

I hope that I have been able to help some of the people that God has brought my way. Some would only stay a short while, others longer. If they went back to their drugs, alcohol or whatever, then I would have to ask them to leave. I tried my best to help each one in their own way. Each one so different. Each one with their own personal problems. God chose each one. I believe that every single person that walked through those doors was hand chosen by God. He wants their soul. He loves them and died for them. Now to give them the Gospel. Some received, some rejected. Those that received had a marvelous experience with the Lord. Those who rejected, ended up in sorrow and heartache.

Patricia stayed with me a total of two years, until she got married. She married this marvelous gentleman called Paul. There are very happy with their new life together. They have two beautiful children...Matthew and Marisa. They bought a house close by so we visit each other often. They are a blessing in my life.

Kevin stayed a total of two years, and then he headed back to Ontario, where his mother and family live. I pray that he can unite himself again with his children. That will bless his life abundantly.

Brian stayed only 6 months or so in this new home, as he had so many medical problems, that he said he had to go to the Coast. The Coast is Vancouver Island, that area. He said that he can breathe better out there. Poor Brian, he had heart problems, diabetes, etc., Was a very sick man. But such a nice gentleman. I am so glad that God brought Brian to my home. He was a good boarder.

Then along came my "star boarder"! His name is Darren. God gave me this young man to mentor and to help solidify his life for the Kingdom of God. He had been saved a few years before, but had backslidden, and God wanted him back. I am so glad that God deemed me worthy to help his son. I thank the Lord daily for Darren.

We planted a vegetable garden out back, not a big area, just about 10 feet long, and about 5-6 feet across. Beets, carrots, tomatoes, etc. His Dad brought over his rotertiller and chewed up the ground for us. Thank you Lord for that treat. It was tough soil and to dig it by hand would have been a momentous job. I bought some bags of top soil and fertilizer and Darren's Dad, mulched that into the ground for us. Darren planted the seeds, and we sure did enjoy a good crop of vegetables.

Beet greens are such a treat to eat. If you barely touch them to the heat, add lemon juice and a little butter, wow, so tasty. I just grave them. So glad I do, because we have had a lot to eat this summer. Darren stayed a total of 2 years then I encouraged to him to get a place on his own. He managed for about a 1 1/2 years doing fairly well. He would come over occasionally and help out with the odd job or two. Finally in the Fall of 2003, Darren went back to Alberta to live with his Grandparents. So far doing well as I hear.

Kelowna is an awesome place to live in the summer months. Bertram Creek Park is my favorite place to swim and go picnicking. They have barbecue pits out there too. You just have to bring your own briquettes, for the barby.
In the summer months of 2003, we have a terrible forest fire here in Kelowna, and Bertram Creek Park was "burned out"! Many of the beautiful, big homes in Mission were also lost. I think God is trying to get us to reach out to HIM.
Computer Courses:
I busied myself in the long winter months, (1998-2000), with computer courses at the local College here. I also took sa course at Trend College. I wanted to see if I could make a living for myself doing computer work. I knew how to type. But how to move a mouse for the computer was completely Greek to me. I soon learned, but found myself spending 8-10 hours a day just practicing on the computer. I now have my own web sites that I manage. Http://www.telanurse.com and Http://www.chavanah.com I love to type up all the messages that God gives me and put them in print. Someday, when the money comes, I will make one big book out of them all.

I took courses in Web Page Design and Layout. Also on E-commerce. After two years of working with this 'computer stuff', I still am not proficient enough to do it for a living. I still have to learn Powerpoint Presentations, Excel spreadsheet, and music production. All of which takes money. The Lord supplied the funds for the computer courses. And even provided the funds to buy the computer hardware. I now have a scanner, printer, monitor and computer, etc. All provided for by the hand of God. The Lord knew that I wanted to write my book for Him, and put all the poems and Sermonettes onto the Web, for His honor and glory.

It is so easy to get sidetracked on a computer. The www or World Wide Web, is an awesome place to be. You can look up anything you want, and you will find it there. Encyclopedias, National Geographic, Smithsonian Institute, etc. I made web pages on Butterfly's, flowers, Unicorns, anything I could find that was different and unusual. I especially loved doing the page on Unicorns because the Bible talks about them on several occasions. If I hadn't read the book and seen the video myself, I might not believe that they actually do exist. But being I saw both, and have the book, then I became a believer, especially after reading the Bible verses on them. You can see the slideshow presentation that I did on my web site. Here is the address: http://www.chavanah.com/Unicorns.htm.

I found out that I loved to do web pages. I loved to create and decorate the backgrounds. It was like doing Interior Decorating in your home, except it is on the web. So much fun! Thank you Lord. Well, as I type today, I have approximately 363 pages in all on the web. Some with AOL, some with Xoom, some with Tripod, some with Homestead, etc., etc., Then I decided it was time to get my own domain name and find a server to host it on. I chose telanurse.com as a nurse in Ontario already took telenurse.com. Being I am the only RN in British Columbia on the web so far, I thought, why not try and open up a ministry on the web? I was fortunate to come across a Christian Web Server called:- ilovejesus.com and their prices were very reasonable...so I also opened up http://www.chavanah.com...a web site that deals with all my Poetry and writings. Well, on to a new chapter as God continues to lead and direct. Hope that this book is encouraging you to go all the way with God. He cannot fail you. He is God!